my heart belongs with you

He is so amazing! He doesn't look that great there, but go see his cover "B.O.B - Nothing On You" He looks super cute there! And guess what? HE LIVES IN GERMANY! How cool is that? But honestly his voice is amazing, i'm so in love with him.

Anyways, today daniel called me while i was lurking this boy and he said "go check your facebook" Stunned, i was happy and excited to check facebook thinking maybe he left me a cute message or something. (Or maybe even ask me to prom?) But who am i kidding? It's Daniel Chu. Not saying it's a bad thing, but since when does he ever do anything "cute". Maybe that's why when i'm with him i don't feel as if he's my boyfriend but rather a very close male best friend. I remember someone saying "I've never seen them kiss." Well, that's because we're not like that. We don't kiss in front of people, we don't show much affection in front of people. But everyone knows we're together because ... well, we're kind of like one person now. No daniel without rosanna and no rosanna without daniel.

But what exactly do i want? Do i want a boyfriend or do i want a male best friend? I really don't know. All i know is he plays quite an important role in my life. He gives me something to look forward to in the future, he gives me a reason to smile when i'm sad, and when we fight and laugh, it's just funny. I love it all. I love the times that we spend together, whether it's in my room, reading FMLs or driving to malls, miles away. It's all worth it. Maybe that's why i love this relationship, because it's not really a relationship. It's kind of in between.

I guess when i complain and say that i'm scared that this relationship won't last, i'm really actually afraid of coming to the time where i have to determine whether or not i want him as a boyfriend or a very close male best friend. All i know is he has his place in my heart, whether it's a best friend or a boyfriend, i love him.