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Just came back from new york. I had a blast! It was such a great experience to have. I had so much fun shopping and running around with daniel (because that's what i always do). It was soo great to save money on so much crap :) I finally bought some nice sunglasses and my michael kors watch!! :D Although it all still costed a lot, i still saved a little.

Day 1 was awful! The bus ride there took almost 9 hours, my ass was hurting from sitting for so long. All we did was sit, sit, sit, eat, eat, pee, pee, line-up, pee, eat, and sit. I actually gained some weight from all that junk and sitting all day. From there we finally arrive to our first outlet mall. It sucked because there wasn't many good stores. I bought a couple of coach items for my mom and sisters and some stuff for my dad. Daniel bought a burberry scarf there for like 120 ish. That's amazing for a burberry scarf! I wanted to buy this ONE scarf. But of course it costed like $600. Fuck that. Afterwards we bought some pizza to eat on the bus and headed to the hotel.

Day 2 was much better. Everything was only about an hour away so i didn't have to sit for long. We first headed to woodbury outlet, which is a HUGEEEEE outlet mall. I bought my marc jacobs sunglasses and my michael kors watch there. I also bought a pair of rock&republic jeans, a oversized tee + shorts from american apparel. It was great! I loved it. From there we headed to Manhattan, which i cannot even describe because... it's just BIG and BUSY. It's like yonge&dundas x10000, unbelievable. I was actually tired of shopping because stores were all like 3 storey high. We went to macy, h&m, forever21, foot locker, zaks, etc. It was crazy. What amazed me the most was Toys'r'us. It was the best one i've ever seen in my life. It didn't seem like a store but rather a huge amusement park. It was beautiful. There we bought haagen-dazs ice cream. A regular scoop for about $6. Sooo expensive but sooo delicious. It was totally worth it! As we make our way around downtown, we were starvinggggg. But i didn't want to buy a hotdog from one of the stands, nor get a burger from mcd's, nor get a slice of pizza.. so as we starved and walked i finally gave in and walked into a restaurant. It's called "Bubba Gump Shrimp Co" I didn't know what it was, all i knew was i was hungry!! Later on we realized that this restaurant was connected to Forrest Gump (yes tina) and in order to get our food we had to answer questions about the movie (i was going to call tina!!) We didn't know ANYTHING, but our waitress tried to give us clues. I had the most amazing burger ever. And daniel had the best shrimp stuff ever! It was sooo delicious. Definitely going to miss that place. (Tina, i have so much to tell you about this place!!)

Day 3 was alright. I spent most of my time shopping for others, trying to spend all the money i had left. Nothing special.

But now i'm home, and i'll never forget this amazing time i had! Thanks daniel for this wondrous trip! :D Love you.

there's nothing you can't do, now you're in New York

These streets will make you feel brand new
Big lights will inspire you, let's hear it for New York

WOOOT WOOOT! NEW YORK CITAY TOMORROW!
Soooo exited! I've never been to the states and i am super duper excited for all the shopping :)
Gonna buy some nice sunglasses and a nice watch :D But most of all i am super excited for the experience i'm going to have with my boyfriend :) We can finally do something different compared to all those "dinner and movie" dates.

Anyways, so when the last fight happened (lying one), he got really defensive about many things. So here it goes.. a happy post for once:

I'm sorry i always take you for granted.. you're right, i always say things or write things to piss you off on purpose. I'm sorry i always shut you down when you just want to have fun with me. I'm sorry i always yell at you and call you degrading names. I'm sorry for never appreciating all the things you do for me. I'm sorry i make you feel like the world revolves around me. I'm sorry for always making you seem like the bad guy. I'm sorry for always being the boring person. I'm sorry i'm not adventurous. I'm so so so sorry. You're a great person, sometimes even too nice .. But you're great, always putting others before yourself, always helping out with everything. I think even my family has fallen in love with you.. Well first off, i can't believe they're actually letting me go to new york, knowing that you're going to be there.. Second off, when we fight or argue, my sisters are always on your side. "Why are you so mean to him!?" "Why are you making him sad?" hahaha. Oh gosh, they're so funny. Anyways i love you and thank you so much for everything. Thank you for keeping up with my wants. Thank you for appreciating me. Thank you for be patient with me. And just thank you for loving me still after all the shit i've put you through. You said "90% of the time you're a brat that thinks the world revolves only around you which pisses me off and makes me hate you but the 10% makes it worth it. Knowing that 10% of you is a different person keeps me going.." Which really hurt, because i wouldn't care if the world thought of me like that, but YOU? You, out of all people... But it's okay, i still love you :)

Anyways, NEW YORK TOMORROW!! See ya, toronto! :)

i hate liars, seriously.

i hate liars, absolutely HATE liars.
i hate lying to people i love
i hate lying
i hate being lied to
and i hate liars

Remember when i said "I bitch only because i have given up something or went out of my way just to do something for you or see you but when it doesn't work out, i bitch." Today was an example. I walked for half an hour just to see you for 5 minutes.. not only did i waste half an hour of walking (after an 8 hour shift), my time, and a bus fare, but i had to find out that you lied to me. My phone was dying and i was busting my ass trying to call you to tell you i'm coming before you left, but every time you would just pick up and say "I'm working" and hung up. So i dealt with it, thinking it must have been busy at the store. That is until i arrived and sat down, thinking "it's not even busy...". Then i see one of your co-workers leaving so i catch them and asked "Excuse me, but is daniel still downstairs..?"
"Daniel Chu? Oh yeah.."
"Oh okay.."
"Oh wait!! No! He left, he's driving someone home.."
"Oh, okay.. thanks!"
"Are you his girlfriend?"
"Yes.."
"Oh!! He talks about you all the time! He says you're very nice!"
"Oh, why thank you! Anyways i gotta go find him. Thanks!"

Then i call you a couple of times .. trying to find you and i finally get a hold of you.

"WHERE ARE YOU!?!?"
"I just got off work, i'm heading to the parking lot."
"Oh really? Cause someone just told me you were driving someone home...."

I hate liars, i really do.
I feel stupid for loving you so much
stupid for believing you
stupid for trusting you
stupid for walking all the way there
stupid for sitting inside mcdonalds
stupid for not just heading home right after work
stupid for trying to call you

i should've listened to my mom when she told me "don't ever love someone too much, you can't trust anyone nowadays" It's true. I used to think it was because she had a bad relationship with my dad, i use to tell myself "I will never let my relationship turn out like theirs" But now look.. lies lies lies

nothing will ever make me happy

argdsgjndskf i'm just so angry!
angry and frustrated!!
over and over again this always happens - i hate you!

that's alright because i love the way you lie

it's funny how two complete strangers can click right away.
it amazes me how friendships can begin, and how everyone is just so friendly nowadays.

today i went out to dinner with my mom, sisters and my aunt. as we were munching, a white man walked in and an asian man was standing beside a table.. i don't really know exactly what was going on but i guess the restaurant was really busy and they were just all confused about who's table that was and so the white man said "what the heck?! let's just share!" and so they shared a table. I thought it would be awkward, i mean imagine yourself and a COMPLETE stranger eating at one table... how awkward... anyways i was listening to their conversation and found it amazing how quickly they became friends. In fact the asian man helped the white man order since the restaurant was a little bit complicated.. But they talked about their backgrounds, their jobs, etc. It was quite fascinating and it was just soo hard for me to ignore the fact that they clicked so easily.

Anyways, back to my boring workaholic life... On Wednesday, July 7 i had a day off and daniel was working and so i decided that i would call out some girlfriends to hang out. Sadly tina couldn't come out, but at least i saw stephanie! We had such an amazing day, i couldn't recall the last time i had a chilling day with just a girlfriend. It was fun, we stopped at boutiques and then headed to Orfus Rd, yorkdale, value village, honest eds, and much more ! It was great! What a day, "Sometimes... i feel horny" LMFAO oh stephanie...

But i've been working a lot lately, i'm basically full time. 40 hours a week. It's crazyy!!! But whatever.

i just really hope you think of me

omg, finally a day off!
I've been working at least 40 hours every week and let me tell you - IT IS EXHAUSTING. 9:30-6 almost everyday, wake up at 8, change, brush my teeth, wash my face, apply my make up, grab my water bottle, grab a bite, run for the streetcar, vacuum the store, sell for my life, etc. You get the point. It's hard work, i'm exhausted. I'm definitely not getting enough sleep, but whatever. At least i'll be rich this summer :) "I got money to blow" I'm just so excited to relax and sleep in tomorrow. Lately i've been hanging out with my coworkers after my shift and we'd go eat or go to someone's house and chat. It's been pretty fun actually, i mean nothing big but it's fun to be able to "chill" again. Anyways.. gotta to go relax now :)

Just a bump on the road

"When we were five, they asked us what we wanted to be when we grew up. Our answers were thing like astronaut, president, or in my case… princess.

When we were ten, they asked again and we answered - rock star, cowboy, or in my case, gold medalist. But now that we've grown up, they want a serious answer. Well, how 'bout this: who the hell knows?!

This isn't the time to make hard and fast decisions, its time to make mistakes. Take the wrong train and get stuck somewhere chill. Fall in love - a lot. Major in philosophy 'cause there's no way to make a career out of that. Change your mind. Then change it again, because nothing is permanent.

So make as many mistakes as you can. That way, someday, when they ask again what we want to be… we won't have to guess. We'll know."

That was the valedictorian speech from Eclipse. It was amazing.. sitting there at Scotiabank Theatre made me feel like it was commencement, that it really is done. I totally agree with her about the mistakes part. It's true, I shouldn't be sitting here trying to figure out who i am, who i want to be, who i want to be with. I should be here having fun, laughing my head off, doing everything i want to do, partying my ass off! But then again, i'm not doing that.

Point is, it's time to make mistakes. I'm eighteen for god sakes. I'm not thirty, why am i trying to change myself for? (that probably explains the one white hair i have in my hair). After watching eclipse, daniel took me home. Throughout the car ride i found myself starring at him, at his eyes, and admiring the colour of it. The way it glows. Then i found myself resting my head on his shoulders and how perfectly my head sits on his shoulders, and the warmth i felt coming from it. I think i can say i sort of fell in love all over again.

He may not be perfect, but he's probably the closest thing.

I just wanted to say, I'm sorry for all those times i doubted you, doubted us, doubted everything. I'm sorry. Guess it really was just a bump on the road. But guess what? We got over it.

I love you.


P.S - Eclipse was amazing! GO WATCH IT.