I wish i didn't know, i really do

Frustrated. That's how i feel right now. Just desperate to know what's going on. I wish i didn't know something was going on, i really do. I woke up today at 8 am and i was already cautious of what was going on, making sure that every second nothing changed. Story is, i have been warned that today was going to be different and special by my boyfriend. I've been waiting ALL FUCKING DAY to see what was special, and let me tell you.. it's 7:49 pm right now, and NOTHING SPECIAL HAS HAPPENED. Nothing at all. Every single move i've made, which includes getting into the car, opening my locker, opening my the doors to my house, walking into class, etc. I just can't take it anymore, i wish i didn't know, i really do. I'm so fucking frustrated and i just can't take my mind off it. I thought this was going to be cute or something, but now it's just annoying. And you know what? It probably won't even matter that much, which is going to be even MORE frustrating because i've been waiting all day.

The other thing that bothers me is that it seems like everyone knows what's going on but me, EVERYONE. Every time i look at someone, they give me this smirk.. like what the fuck? Oh gosh i'm so annoyed and i know i shouldn't be, but it's soo fucking annoying. I'm so mad right now, so so so so so so mad, arghhhhhhhhh. This better be good, i fucking swear.