i really hope it's me

I just came back from the JA Awards Ceremony and let me tell you:
IT SUCKED
Tina, you should be glad you didn't tag along.

Award winners won Dell NetBooks! I was soo frigging jealous! Some girl won 2 NetBooks!! One for being top sales ($1900s) and one for being Best VP of Marketing & Sales. Shit, so frigging jealous. Another guy won a NetBook AND a $1000 scholarship. Frigging people, everyone always win something but me...

Actually, not true.

I received the outstanding service award at work and will soon received the yearbook editor award and hopefully a SAC merit award. So that's better than nothing.

Anyways, i just read someone's blog and it was talking about friends and all that. That used to be a big deal to me, but now i just give up on friends (except for Tina, LOL). I can't fully trust someone after what has happened. People use what i tell them to judge me and to stab me in the back. But guess what? I really don't care. I'm proud of everything that has happened and how it changed my life, so i let it be inspirational rather than a bad secret. But anyways, this person apologized to one person who they supposably hurt, i don't really know who it is, but i would like to think it was me. Thinking it was me is always better than nothing.