Just a bump on the road

"When we were five, they asked us what we wanted to be when we grew up. Our answers were thing like astronaut, president, or in my case… princess.

When we were ten, they asked again and we answered - rock star, cowboy, or in my case, gold medalist. But now that we've grown up, they want a serious answer. Well, how 'bout this: who the hell knows?!

This isn't the time to make hard and fast decisions, its time to make mistakes. Take the wrong train and get stuck somewhere chill. Fall in love - a lot. Major in philosophy 'cause there's no way to make a career out of that. Change your mind. Then change it again, because nothing is permanent.

So make as many mistakes as you can. That way, someday, when they ask again what we want to be… we won't have to guess. We'll know."

That was the valedictorian speech from Eclipse. It was amazing.. sitting there at Scotiabank Theatre made me feel like it was commencement, that it really is done. I totally agree with her about the mistakes part. It's true, I shouldn't be sitting here trying to figure out who i am, who i want to be, who i want to be with. I should be here having fun, laughing my head off, doing everything i want to do, partying my ass off! But then again, i'm not doing that.

Point is, it's time to make mistakes. I'm eighteen for god sakes. I'm not thirty, why am i trying to change myself for? (that probably explains the one white hair i have in my hair). After watching eclipse, daniel took me home. Throughout the car ride i found myself starring at him, at his eyes, and admiring the colour of it. The way it glows. Then i found myself resting my head on his shoulders and how perfectly my head sits on his shoulders, and the warmth i felt coming from it. I think i can say i sort of fell in love all over again.

He may not be perfect, but he's probably the closest thing.

I just wanted to say, I'm sorry for all those times i doubted you, doubted us, doubted everything. I'm sorry. Guess it really was just a bump on the road. But guess what? We got over it.

I love you.


P.S - Eclipse was amazing! GO WATCH IT.